I know people are cursing Rebecca right now. They don’t understand how she could treat Embry like she did after everything they’ve been through. After all, they grew up together and he was always there for her when she needed him. So I decided to write this to try to give you a little more insight to this character.
To start off with, I need to discuss Rebecca’s relationship with Ian. Although they have issues, Rebecca does love him. Just because Embry imprinted on her doesn’t mean she’s going to drop Ian or stop caring about him. It would be unrealistic if she did. She and Ian have been through a lot and they’ve been together for 15 years. Yes they have martial problems…who doesn’t? And to be fair to Ian, I’ve only shown you his ugly side; you don’t get a lot of glimpses of his positive qualities. For example, you don’t see how well he and Rebecca get along. They aren’t just husband and wife, they’re best friends. (And yes, I know she cheated on him and you’re probably saying, what kind of friend is that, but I’ll get into that.) Ian’s not perfect, in fact he’s pretty selfish and self-involved at times, but Ian helped Rebecca through the very worst time of her life, being when she lost her mom.
Now, does that mean Rebecca doesn’t care deeply for Embry? Of course not. But the whole point of this story is that she’s forbidden to him. He fell in love with someone who is married and unavailable. Yes, Embry was hurt horribly by the whole experience. That’s what happens in affairs. As one of my reviewers said, “Marital affairs get romanticized.” There is nothing romantic about them.
Now, while I love Embry, he’s not exactly prince charming in this story. He pushed for a relationship even after Jacob warned him to back off. People were so mad at Jacob when I wrote his fight with Embry, and I kept saying Jacob’s a lot smarter than you think. Rebecca was overly emotional the day she slept with Embry. She had just gotten into a horrible fight with Ian. Imprinting can only excuse his actions so much. Whether he was conscious of it or not, Embry took advantage of her emotional state.
Rebecca had told Embry more than once that all she wanted to be was friends with him. Embry always believed they were meant to be more. He’s had tunnel vision and only saw what he wanted to see. She offered friendship again on the beach in Hawaii and he laughed at the idea. What else could she do but tell him to leave her alone? And let’s not forget about Embry’s past. Rebecca knows that Embry’s spent the majority of his 20s as an alcoholic womanizer. Why would she leave Ian, who is selfish but stable, for someone with Embry’s history?
Rebecca’s a scared first time mother who saw Embry's reckless womanizing with her own eyes. So what it all boils down to is what’s best for her baby. Who's better…Embry with his questionable past…or Ian with his constant stability?
While the sex with Embry was mind-blowing for her, Rebecca wasn’t and isn’t ready to throw away her marriage. Aside from the history Rebecca has with Ian, she’s waited a very long time to be a mother. The baby is her number one priority now. She’s going to do what she thinks is best and fair for the baby, which is to stay with the father. Add on the massive pile of guilt she feels for committing adultery and she had to let Embry go. Now was she overly harsh doing it? Yes…Rebecca’s not stupid. I think she began to take Embry’s declaration of love seriously when Embry said he would be willing to raise Ian’s baby.
There’s the expression, you have to be cruel to be kind. While I’m sure a lot will argue with me on this, I think the most selfless Rebecca has been in this story so far has been when she told Embry to leave her alone and that there was nothing between them. Even if she was developing feelings for Embry, she needed to let him go for the baby’s sake and and he needed to do the same. While babies don’t fix a marriage, she owed it to her baby and Ian to at least try. She couldn’t and wouldn’t abandon the father of her child. But she didn’t enjoy hurting Embry here.
As one of my reviewers wrote: “Poor Rebecca. I feel her pain. You can tell from the pauses and sighs that she doesn't want to hurt Embry. I have to admire her, because from what I can see, she's cutting him loose so he'll be able to move on.”
Rebecca told Embry what he needed to hear so he could move forward with his life. She let him go, but she also made sure he let her go. And he does at the end. He says, “I was nothing to her…and she was now nothing to me.” Now that he is “free” he’ll be able to find some peace in his life…for now anyway.
So now you know what was going through Rebecca’s head.
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